Jan 2: No Stars

Well 2010 is here...it's windy and rainy and my tummy aches :(

What's new right?

Anyway..my first 2 days of this new year weren't the best...I felt crappy as I wrote yesterday BUT I did get for a walk and that felt, as always, GREAT. Everything normalizes when I walk. You would think this would get my butt to the gym but it hasn't..yet.

So i did awful today food wise. I ate 5 chocolates again at work :( and I had crap tonight after my non south beach diet supper.

I think it's in the back of my mind to start Monday rather than this weekend.

I still have high hopes. I CAN do this. I really really WANT this...More than anything I want in this life right now.

I plan on Hot Yoga for Monday still...even if I have a hot flash I still plan on going and trying my best.

Right now it's hard to walk on my feet..I feel so heavy, my ankles and knees actually hurt!

I'm about 5'3 and a half and i'm at least 160lbs...which is alot..I should be no more than 130...

It's amazing how extra weight affects me...some can handle it..I cannot.my frame can't take it. I have to lose this.